Oh My could you be any slower!

Hurry up computer I am about to bust! I know that this is suppose to be an uplifting blog, but I have three sisters and I am the only one that lives away. I know they are tired of me texting and calling them and I just have to vent! All was going well today, I came home from school and of course Ava was crying but not too much. My house has been a wreck so I had planned to meet a housekeeper at 4:30 to give me an estimate. (if she only knew that at that moment i would pay anything!!) I finally called her at 4:45 and she said she would be there at 4:30!? That should have been my sign. Ian had told me he wanted to go watch his friends bball game at 5:30. I really did not want to go because I needed to go get groceries. He started reminding me every 15 min what time it was. Like I did not know. Finally at about 5:15 the lady calls to ask me what road to turn down. I realized she was taking the wrong road and tried to tell her but she insisted she knew where she was going. Time passed and I tried to call her twice. I left messages. Oh and, during this time I was trying to rock Ava, when my new iphone dropped to the floor!!! The back shattered! I wanted to cry. I had ordered an otter box cover this morning! It just kept going down hill....Ian keeps reminding me of the time. I hated to tell him he was not going because I had to get groceries and now go by Verizon and a little lady from church called and wanted me to stop by her house. She had a gift for Ava. I broke the news to Ian then thought "what the heck", who knows where the cleaning lady is. Lets go to town. "Ian grab your phone I am going to drop you off at the ball park then I am going to Verizon". Did I just leave my 10 year old at the ball park by himself????? Yes I did!!! I ran to Verizon to find out for $169 I could have a new phone. Man, insurance is good!! I decided when I got that otter box no body will ever see my shattered back! So, I ran by and got the precious little dress for Ava then headed back to the ball park to wait on Ian. Of course, once I stopped, Ava cried. Got her out and held her while I tried to cancel the otter box using my phone. (I needed one asap) I got Ian and we headed to the grocery store....half way there I forgot I did not have my wallet! We went home. I did not want to go to the store on sat morning because I was expecting Edward at6:30am and Ian had to be somewhere at 9 and I WANT TO GO SEE MY MOMMA!!!!!! One guess what starts playing on the radio?...You got it! This is the stuff that drives me CRAZY!! Don't we just love God! Thanks for letting me vent-Julie

One year ago!

Can you believe it! It was one year ago today that God revealed to me a promise he had made me two year earlier. I am still sometimes in shock that we have a little girl. And she is all I have ever dreamed of! Attitude and all!!! Well, I dream of a brown eyed girl but God gave her gorgeous blue eyes that pop! He is a wonderful creator! Any way it has been a long year. One that has been full of excitement. And one of the best years of my life. I just want you to know that God is BIG. He can do anything. Trust in Him. Believe Him! Look for Him each day! Thank you all for sharing this wonderful time with me. I will post from time to time, when I have a chance. I am finding that it is really hard to even get on the computer! I love you all!

We are still alive

Yes we are still alive! It is really hard to find time to post! I will admit it that this mommy business is not like I expected. This little miracle baby is making it a miracle that I am still alive! I will try to post a picture of our sweet doll, if I can find one of her asleep! No she is not sleeping through the night and yes I have returned to work. I think I needed to go back to work so we both could enjoy each other. When I am home with her all day I keep finding this that could be wrong. Like thinking her formula is not the right kind, is she breathing ok.. and so on. She is a tooter from sun up to sun down and I can not seem to find a formula that will take care of that. I don't think she has gotten any better like everyone said she would.("She will grow out of it") I think she has just learned to deal with it and I went back to work!

Yes I am loving being her mommy and she has began to smile! That is worth all the long nights! She does love her daddy. In fact the week I went back to work, she decided he was "it"! He was the only one who could make her happy except when I feed her. Once again her timing was way off because I really did not need her to not want me that week! But she does love her mommy and smiles at me all the time now.

Sorry if it seems like I am rambling, it must be the lack of sleep. I heard a song today on the way to church. It was by Francesca Battistelli called "this is the stuff". That is my song! I lost my keys about five times last week! Check it out.

Love you more

Every time I tell Ian I love him he tells me "I love you more". He asked me yesterday if I loved Ava more than him. I told him that before Ava was born I wondered how I would love anyone else as much as I loved him, but God had given me so much love that I loved Ava just as much as I loved him. He told me "well, I love Ava more than you"! Oh, that shocked me but I would not want it any other way!!!

Welcome to motherhood!

Welcome to Motherhood....again! This is the first week we have been by ourselves. All of our nannies have gone home. I decided to give Ava a bath. So while she was a sleep a got everything together. I filled the little tub with water, making sure not to get it too hot. Made sure the towel was laid out, and got all of the items I needed. Here we go. I can do this on my own. Of course she started crying! I cleaned up her dirty diaper and put her in the tub. She immediately pooped in the tub...a bunch!!! So I cleaned her off as good as I could and let all that good water out. I picked her up and ran to the bathroom to get another rag. When I grabbed the rag, another one fell in the toilet! So I have a wet slippery baby in my hands, a clean rag and a wet one from the toilet. I went back to back to the sink to clean her up and about that time, she peeped! Luckily it missed me and went on the floor. I know what you are saying...Welcome to motherhood!!! I LOVE IT!!!!

Lots to be Thankful for

I have so much to be thankful for. First of all, thank you God for loving me and sending Jesus for me. Now I can live an abundant life with Him. Next, I am so very thankful for my family. I have wonderful parents who have dedicated their lives to raise us in a godly home. They have shown me the importance of having a relationship with our heavenly father. Then there are my sisters. Oh my. When we were growing up, I never imagined we would ever like each other like we do now! I am totally embarrassed of the way I acted growing up. We literally fought like cats and dogs! God knew what he was doing when he put us together. He knew we would all need each other when we were older. He knew I would need them when I was forty and was going to have a baby!! Each one of them have their own gift. It is so neat to see what God has designed us all to be. Lastly, God has blessed me with a wonderful family of my own. I have a husband that takes a stand in leading our family to serve Jesus. I am amazed every day of how much James loves and cares for his family. He has been right there with me and we have tried our best to do what God wants us to do. God has really blessed us. He has given me more than I ever deserve. Thank you God for my family and my two wonderful children. Your plans are always best!!! Thanks so much!