I hope this is not too long of a post, but I have to organize my thoughts. I am reading in the book of Judges. As I have done several times before, I said Lord what are you going to show me in Judges? It never fells He comes through. In chapter 6, it starts off with "Again the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord" When will they ever learn? Then I thought they are God's chosen people. We as Christians are His chosen people and we mess up all the time. When will we ever learn? Reading on I came to where God sent an angel to call Gideon to help the Israelites.
Let me pause and tell you that I am in the early stages of labor. I am preparing for the arrival of this little miracle that God has given me. It has been an exciting 36 weeks. None of it has been the way I planned. It has been HIS plan and I have a feeling that her arrival will not be as I plan either! I have a doctors appointment today so I have stayed home from work to pack our bags just in case. I have enjoyed this morning more than you would ever know. The quietness of the house (other than a load of clothes washing) has been so nice. Beds are made, and I have picked up all of remnants of Ian's star wars battle from the living room floor. Then I set down to read my Bible and gaze out all my windows at the calves grazing in the pasture. "God what are you going to show me today?" I have to be honest, I keep thinking about this little girl inside me. What will she look like? What if something is wrong? Her eyesight, her hearing, her mental capabilities, and...what if she is a he! (Lots of crying this morning!)
So to go back to Gideon. The angel of the Lord appeared to him. He told Gideon to prepare a sacrifice. When he did, Gideon placed it on a rock. Then the angel touched the meat and bread and fire flared from the rock consuming it. Miracle #1. Then Gideon proceeds to either test God or needs more encouragement to do what God wants him to do. He lays out the fleece. Gideon knew that asking this might make displease God, but yet demands two more miracles! It is true that to make good decisions, we need facts. Gideon has all the facts, but still he hesitated obeying God because he wanted more proof. In my commentary, it said that demanding extra signs was an indication of unbelief. Fear often makes us wait for more confirmation when we should be taking action. Visible signs are unnecessary if they only confirm what we already know is true.
Lord, you have brought us a long way. There have been more signs than I can even begin to count. Forgive me of my unbelief. Forgive me for not believing you are going to take us all the way through. However you have formed and created Ava will be perfect. You are God. I will be her number one supporter throughout her life. My purpose is to bring her to a relationship with you and I pray you will give me the wisdom and knowledge to do that. You have blessed me with a wonderful family and you have called me to lead them to you.
Here's a little update
I know it has been a long time. I have just been trying to get stuff ready and I just have not had any inspiration to write. Have you been there? Well, today I have had the inspiration...I have to let you know how it is! My back hurts! My belly sticks out about three feet!! I am emotional!! and I have been REALLY grouchy today!!! How is that for inspiration!
My day started off with me reading about Joshua dividing the tribes. I kept saying to myself..."God what am I suppose to get out of this???" But I did read a verse that said, Joshua was 80 years old and tired. God told him he was not done with him. So God still uses us when we are old. OK. For some reason I have been thinking about that all day. I am still waiting on the revelation about that scripture. Moving on, I go to get ready for the day and found myself in a conversation with James. When I went to get my clothes on, I always stop to make my bed. I started on one side and when I went around to the other, I saw the clock!!! It was 7:12 and we usually leave the house at 7:00! I grabbed something to wear and left the bed half done. Ok, so here is my outfit...a pair of extra large knit pants(not maternity), a tank top that was not maternity then a dress over it all. I have worn this lately. I came out and by the time I was in the kitchen, my pants had dropped down under my belly and the tank had jumped up over my belly! With no time to change, I said to myself...It is going to be a long day!!! And to top it off...my belly button has decided to show itself off! Oh, was pregnancy like this the first time around? Then when I go to get my kiddos to take them to the bus, one little kindergarten girl ask me everyday.."Are you going to have a baby?" I guess they can't help but notice since my belly is about eye level to them.
On a good note, I had a baby shower at school. It was great and we got more stuff for our little one! Everyone tells me little girls need lots of clothes. She is starting off with more that she will be able to wear! Thanks everyone.
I don't think I have updated since my shower at church. It was a fairytale shower! Beautiful! I am still amazed at the decorations and the cake. Thank you ladies for all your hard work!
I hope I have not rambled too much, I guess I needed to vent a little! Thanks for listening!
Have a great Day!
My day started off with me reading about Joshua dividing the tribes. I kept saying to myself..."God what am I suppose to get out of this???" But I did read a verse that said, Joshua was 80 years old and tired. God told him he was not done with him. So God still uses us when we are old. OK. For some reason I have been thinking about that all day. I am still waiting on the revelation about that scripture. Moving on, I go to get ready for the day and found myself in a conversation with James. When I went to get my clothes on, I always stop to make my bed. I started on one side and when I went around to the other, I saw the clock!!! It was 7:12 and we usually leave the house at 7:00! I grabbed something to wear and left the bed half done. Ok, so here is my outfit...a pair of extra large knit pants(not maternity), a tank top that was not maternity then a dress over it all. I have worn this lately. I came out and by the time I was in the kitchen, my pants had dropped down under my belly and the tank had jumped up over my belly! With no time to change, I said to myself...It is going to be a long day!!! And to top it off...my belly button has decided to show itself off! Oh, was pregnancy like this the first time around? Then when I go to get my kiddos to take them to the bus, one little kindergarten girl ask me everyday.."Are you going to have a baby?" I guess they can't help but notice since my belly is about eye level to them.
On a good note, I had a baby shower at school. It was great and we got more stuff for our little one! Everyone tells me little girls need lots of clothes. She is starting off with more that she will be able to wear! Thanks everyone.
I don't think I have updated since my shower at church. It was a fairytale shower! Beautiful! I am still amazed at the decorations and the cake. Thank you ladies for all your hard work!
I hope I have not rambled too much, I guess I needed to vent a little! Thanks for listening!
Have a great Day!
I just Laugh!
You know I spoke to the ladies yesterday, well James came home today and told me he heard I did a great job. He said that they thought I was funny!!? I share my deepest secrets and you think I was funny. So I laughed. I was trying to remember...didn't Sarah laugh??? I looked it up and in Genesis 21:6 it says, Sarah said, "God has brought me laughter, and everyone who hears about this will laugh with me," I have been laughing since April! I just look at myself and laugh. I laugh at James because he will be 40 Saturday. He doesn't think he is getting old. I have been telling him, you just wait. OK, I know 40 is not old and in about 10 years, 50 won't be old either!!
I am rambling...if you could have seen me this afternoon, you would have laughed to. I was squatted down trimming my hedges, thinking "this is not a good position to be in right now...and I start laughing and fell over on the bump called my rump! Yes, God has such a sense of humor! And I am so glad I can share it with you. He has brought us great laughter!
I am rambling...if you could have seen me this afternoon, you would have laughed to. I was squatted down trimming my hedges, thinking "this is not a good position to be in right now...and I start laughing and fell over on the bump called my rump! Yes, God has such a sense of humor! And I am so glad I can share it with you. He has brought us great laughter!
What a great day!
Today I had the opportunity to share our story with the Ladies of our church. I have known that I was going to do this for several weeks and have been thinking about it. I pretty much had it all together this week so I could just practice and try to make it flow better. I stayed up till 1:00am this morning trying to say it. I found myself falling to sleep as I was talking and saying the weirdest things so I went to bed!!! My first thought this morning was I have to cut that down. We will be there all day!! I really tried ladies, but there is just so much that God has done! I want everyone to know about it. Thanks for listening, ladies.
I came home this afternoon and crashed! When I woke, I started thinking about all the things I have to get done before this little angel gets here. The next project on the list is her shower. That will be next Sunday. I have been given a list of items to give to the hostesses. They are keeping me busy. I guess that is a good thing because did you happen to look at that ticker thing at the top of the page? Today it said 60 DAYS to go. What happen to the hundred and something days?! The other day I looked at the big belly in the mirror and it hit me...THAT THING HAS TO COME OUT!!!!! Oh Lord, am I really for this?
I came home this afternoon and crashed! When I woke, I started thinking about all the things I have to get done before this little angel gets here. The next project on the list is her shower. That will be next Sunday. I have been given a list of items to give to the hostesses. They are keeping me busy. I guess that is a good thing because did you happen to look at that ticker thing at the top of the page? Today it said 60 DAYS to go. What happen to the hundred and something days?! The other day I looked at the big belly in the mirror and it hit me...THAT THING HAS TO COME OUT!!!!! Oh Lord, am I really for this?
Saturday Morning
Here I am Saturday morning and my mind is going crazy! I have so much that I NEED to get done and so much that I WANT to get done. I am speaking to the ladies of our church next Sunday and I don't have it all together!!! So today was going to be that day when I got by myself and focus on that. Well, I have washed two loads of clothes, ordered two pairs of shoes (that I hope will fit my fat feet), and I have checked my email. It is 10:00 and my guys will be back soon so you know what that means! As I read over my messages, I came to Ali's update. She is a 5 year old girl who is fighting cancer. Her mom is amazing! She shares her feelings as they journey though this wilderness. This morning she wrote about being busy with all the stuff we put in our lives and when the storms come, we forget that there is peace for the taking if we get in the right boat. I would love for you to read her thoughts and to see what God is doing in their lives...its a miracle! http/www.caringbridge.org/visit/alli_gator_callender
So, even though this little one will be here is less than 10 weeks...OMGoodness! I will try to take one step at a time and not stress over my list of things to get done. God has done too much in my life for me to miss it because of all the STUFF that I THINK are important.
I have a new picture of Ava Grace but my computer crashed and I am using James'. It does not have the scanning software I need on it. She is growing and still has her arms in front of her face! What was neat about these pictures is her fat cheeks! I could not believe it. James still thinks she has a big nose. My friend said she had MY nose....did I call her my friend? LOL. So, honestly, do I have a big nose?? So, what's wrong with a big nose? ...........OK, I'm leaving now, to go meet with God. See ya.
So, even though this little one will be here is less than 10 weeks...OMGoodness! I will try to take one step at a time and not stress over my list of things to get done. God has done too much in my life for me to miss it because of all the STUFF that I THINK are important.
I have a new picture of Ava Grace but my computer crashed and I am using James'. It does not have the scanning software I need on it. She is growing and still has her arms in front of her face! What was neat about these pictures is her fat cheeks! I could not believe it. James still thinks she has a big nose. My friend said she had MY nose....did I call her my friend? LOL. So, honestly, do I have a big nose?? So, what's wrong with a big nose? ...........OK, I'm leaving now, to go meet with God. See ya.
Pictures!!
When I saw these, it really hit me. She is a little baby! She is a 3lbs 7 oz. chunk! As Melanie said today, "full figure" females must be a strong trait. (Mel, I just couldn't bring myself to write "fat"!!!) Anyway, not sure if Ava Grace will be wearing new born outfits!
Ok, She is sticking her tongue out. That is not her lip! She also does not like to have her picture taken...that is not yet. I can't wait to kiss on that little arm!
Appointment
We met with our specialist, Dr. Briery on Thursday. They did a sonogram and all kinds of measurements. First off we wanted to make sure we had a girl, so the tech showed us! James said "whats that" and the tech said "girl parts!" James said "oh, let's move on." Very obvious a girl!! Then the tech tells us she has a big belly and more fluid than normal. Dr. Briery said I probably was on the borderline of gestational diabetes. Baby is 3.2 lbs and is in 95 percentile. So, I am trying to eat better. If any of you have dealt with GD, please give me some suggestions. Doctor is very concerned with having a big baby, so I will be seeing him every two weeks and my regular doctor the other weeks. I mention to Dr. Briery that OB said she would induce a few days early just because I am high risk with seizures. Briery said...about two weeks early!!!! Oh my I was not ready for that. Once I started calculating everything, I realized I was not ready at school. So I have been a little anxious the last two days. I know everything will be fine. I am a last minute person but I have realized I have got to get myself together and get it all done!! Ava Grace will be here real soon.
Oh, sorry for not posting pictures, but the only ones we got were the "parts" pictures. I thought it best not to post on the world wide web!!!
Oh, sorry for not posting pictures, but the only ones we got were the "parts" pictures. I thought it best not to post on the world wide web!!!
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